You want every minute......
It's true, you do want every minute. Somehow I convinced myself that three weeks would be enough to get to know Alex, but it barely scratched the surface. It was enough time for me to fall hopelessly in love, and realize that I had finally found someone that was perfect for me in every way. For a long time I felt less then whole, like a part of me was missing. It's hard going through life feeling like half a person. I guess that's why I turned inward so often, looking into that deep well of despair that made me so morose and depressive all the time. But it's dificult to find that part of me now. I can honestly say now that I've found the other half of myself that I've been missing for so long. The whole time she was here, she took care of me. She wanted to spend every minute with me, know everything I was thinking. She enjoyed just sitting and listening to me....well, when she could keep her lips off me anyways. She enjoyed just sitting and touching me, looking at me. In her eyes I feel amazing. She makes me want to be a better person, to try harder. I feel bad that we didn't get to do more while she was here, but she seemed to enjoy her visit. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, to walk away in the opposite direction knowing I was going to have to let her go for another 10 months. I miss everything about her, the way she hums (as she's doing now on the phone) during periods of silence, the way she brushes her hair, the way her chest falls up and down while she sleeps, the sound of her breathing while she sleeps, the way her eyes lit up every morning she woke up beside, the way she would just sit and look at me when we were eating dinner together, the way she held me while we slept. My bed feels so cold and empty without her. But I know now for certain, were it ten months, or ten years or across a hundred oceans instead of one, she's worth every minute.
~Rav