Eternal Nothingness
I don't even know if anyone reads this thing anymore. For the most part, I've just let it go. My raves and rants I keep to myself and there hasn't been anything new happen in my life. Still busy, still depressed most of the time, still searching for meaning in something I don't think anyone can understand. I will say this though, it's amazing to me how much old scars still bleed. In the words of Amy Lee....there's just so much that time cannot erase. I lay awake some nights wishing there was someone there to dry my tears, hold me when I screamed....but that's all it is, a wish. It's taken some time, but I've finally come to the harsh undeniable conclusion. No matter where I am, who I live with, or how many people I have around me....I am, as I always will be...alone. I'll never understand why a single Ravyn must fly alone. I'm off now, I've more miles of lonely road to fly. If anyone still reads this thing, you might check back in at some other time....perhaps someday, I'll write more. But until that day, just assume that things are much the same they always have been for me....lonely, dark, and cold.